AUDITIONS AUDITIONS AUDITIONS FREAKS ME OUT!!!!

My husband says you can't say you an actress but you hate auditions, but its the truth i hate auditions they make  me look like i made a mistake to choose this career but yet again i didnt chooese this career it chose me i was chosen by it. I dont like the idea of competing and waiting in a que wich its a a diplomt statement becouse its part of my calling to stand in a que and be a nervous wreck.

I went to an audition it was filled with few south african well known artist respected in their calibre that on its own freaked me out. i asked my self what am i doing here i cant compete with  these guys they like my heroes in art,yet again they are human beings doing their job description which is auditioning...actually mine too!

I cant face rejection.

I love theatre but hate auditions im hoping one day i will get a call that says "philisiwe sithole im calling to ask if you would like to be part of the show, film,concert we are doing." well i have to create that  in the experience iam getting from the show i will be doing te gig i wll be perfoming in but it starts with an audition its hard to hear NO, but its part of me part of my calling.....

AFROCENTRIC JAZZ DYNAMIC VOICE she said that....

i was excited when i was asked to perform in this spactucular event it was a good experience luckily i think im good in writing songs so i jotted down few lyrics and i liked them. I recorded the song and it sounded good i got a friend of mine to help me deliver this song  he was a djembe player ,percussionist and guitarist very passionate with world music, music that  is unlabeled and easily imitated becouse its a soul to soul  perfomance and we rehearsed and rehearsed improvised went to trance it was a joy to rehearse becouse i was free to be free the day came for me to perform and i did it was more than  just perfoming a song i was releasing what was inside and it felt in right ears and the audience loved it alot im proud to say iam collecting my experiences i feel alive when i perform live and perfoming on stage and i got good feedback and some guy wants to manage me but im not easily impressed by those people. i felt like i was being true to who iam what im made of alot people dont know my sound they were relly impressed and those who know me saw growth and passion, im grateful to MIRIAM MAKEBA,LETTA MBULI,CAIPHUS SEMENYA,MADALA KUNENE,BHEKI KHOZA, HUGH MASEKELA, SIPHO MABUSE,BUSI MHLONGO,THANDISWA MAZWAI,SIMPHIWE DANA,FRESHLYGROUND KWANI EXPERIENCE,JONAS NGWANGWA,ASA,INDIA ARIE,THE SOIL,MCOY MRABATA,JIMMY DLUDLU, VUSI MAHLASELA,,,just to mention a few music is a calling i dont care how good i sound or how bad i sound all i kow is that i communicate to my vocies and hungry ears